Here is a topic that I have never talked about. In fact it isn’t one I had ever thought much about. Thinking back over most of my post, I rarely talk about my friends and family. Mainly I talk about myself. When I look at my life and my disease, I look at how most of my life I spent in solitude with it. No one in my family really understood what I was going through. I remember a time when I was a teenager when my parents were practically dragging me out of bed to get dressed and go to school. They couldn’t understand what I was feeling mentally or physically. I don’t hold this against them because in all honestly, there was no way for them to understand. I myself didn’t understand the disease. As far as friends go, I hid my disease from them. I opened up a little but never really let anyone into that part of my life. My wife…my rock…she is the only one that has seen me at my worst. She has been there for the good and the bad. And yet, I don’t mention her much. Hmmm, that has to change.
So, how do I choose to write about them. Well, the truth is that I don’t think about it. When a story comes into my head I write it out. I don’t think about who I am writing about. When I finally see a person appear on the screen, that is when I will stop and think. I don’t want to make anyone look bad on here. So when I do mention someone close to me, I will look at what I have written just to make sure it is all good. Overall though, I try to keep my post about me just so I don’t offend friends and family.
Now, as far as online friends. That is a whole other story. I have mentioned other people before. Honestly, I always feel weird doing it. I try not to put last names and sometimes I will not put a name at all. But some people are so big within the community that if I just put a first name you will know who I am talking about. For these people, I don’t worry. I won’t write anything bad about them, that’s for sure. I know some people don’t like to be mentioned and if anyone tells me not to say their name, then I won’t. I look back on the guest post from Sarah. She told me at the last-minute not to use her last name…so I didn’t.
As far as the content that I write, I just write what pops into my head. Sometimes nothing pops in which is why I can go a week or two without a post. But I never focus on other people for my blog. Overall, it is me and me alone that I want to focus on. Well, except for my Follow Fridays..but that is to promote other sites where the people have already put their name out there.