Goodbye To My Old Life


Good Bye

 

This happens to many people every year.  Many of them deal with it and move on.  For us with incurable diseases, it is a major issue.  I now have to deal with it and I am scared.  I am talking about changing doctors.

For years I didn’t have a General Practitioner (GP) and I was fine with that.  I have been jumping around from doctor to doctor and that really hasn’t bothered me.  I always had my GI I could talk to and help me work out any problems.  With my insurance, I can see any specialist without a referral so I felt like I didn’t need a GP.  My GI doctor is a whole other story.  I have been seeing this one for about 6-7 years now and have built up a great relationship with him.  If you read my blog you know some of the issues I have had and how caring my GI has been to them.

Yesterday I came home and saw a letter from Mt Sinai.  I thought it was junk mail and wasn’t going to open it.  Something made me though and I am glad I did.  It was a letter saying my GI was leaving.  I felt so scared all of a sudden.  I don’t worry so much about finding a new one because there are a couple of GI’s with Mt Sinai I know of that are really good.  What scares me is that I have to start over.  I have to share my entire history.  I have to work with a new thought pattern from the doctor.  Worst of all, I have to hope the new GI will approve the LDN I am taking.  That is what scares me the most.

I know in the long run, things will be fine.  I know I really shouldn’t worry as much as I am, but I can’t help it.  Going into something new like this always worries me.  It is just who I am.  Luckily, I have had some good support online from some great people.  They are helping to reduce my stress.

What I would like to know, is how many of you have had to deal with this and how did it turn out?  Did everything go smoothly?  What are your thoughts on changing GI’s when you have a great one?

I do have to say, I will miss my GI a lot.  Luckily he is actually moving closer to me. I just can’t get there and get to work in the same day.  He won’t have weekend hours so I don’t think I will be able to see him anymore, hence I have to look for a new GI.

Crying

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